The Hair Cut That Changes Everything

I just got a hair cut. Usually that means that I would get a few inches taken off, and my bob would be reshaped a bit. I did that for nearly eight years. I decided to get something drastically different this time. Inspired by Rhianna, it's edgy, dark in color with blonde patches. It is awesome! I feel like a brand new person. All because of a haircut? Maybe not. But that was the catalyst, I think.

New hair!!!

I was bored. I was bored with my routine, bored with my clothes, my hair, my makeup. Nothing was fun about getting up in the morning. So I changed it. I bought some new clothes, got my hair cut and colored, colored my nails a dark red (quite contrasting to the french manicure or nude polish that has always been on them) and got a pedicure. I went to bed as Stephanie P, and woke up as someone almost entirely different; sassy, strong, confident, and beautiful. Maybe that was me all along, but now I see it. Now I see what my husband sees.

And again!

It's weird how it has been all of a sudden. I feel like my exterior matches my interior. I feel more free to be myself, because everything is so congruent and vibrant and new. I wish it were always this simple to feel so great life. Regrettably, this isn't the norm. It's not usually a few new clothes and some time at the salon that stomps out self-worth issues. Having issues with image is usually deeply rooted in other things, not just a need to modernize one's wardrobe. It concerns me that young girls I have mentored and known may seek to better their outward appearance in an attempt to mask the inward hurt or shame. That is no way to live.

I am glad for this minor transformation in me. After three and a half years of transforming my heart and mind, I got to really reward myself with a simple hair cut, and I can honestly say that it's not an attempt to hide anything, it's the icing. Five years ago, it may have been to divert attention away from a heart that was clearly broken and hurting. But today, I am moving toward becoming whole. Today is a great day.

-SP

Cover Letter

Dear internet readers,



A tattoo of my life word

 Love drives me. Music feeds me. My husband breathes life into me. My family is my passion. My friendships are sacred. My heart is usually broken. My life is an example of courage. I hope my life will also be an example of Godly justice. 

I am a gifted writer, except when it's stream of consciousness; then it gets messy and confusing. I write what I want, state where I am at; what hurts, what brings me joy, what fulfills me and what makes me feel empty.

I live my dreams every day. Some days my dreams are extravagant and bigger than words, and other days I dream only of eating chocolate, so I do. I love words. Words are an art. Art is beautiful, and expresses things that I can't because words don't suffice. 

These are the things that I love. I am about authenticity and honesty. I am excited to share what I am learning with you, my friends.

-SP